In the beginning of summer, I sat infront of my desk and decided to write a letter full of regret, apologies, hope, promises, and possibilities. I think it's safe that we can call that a "farewell" letter. This letter contains all my thoughts about the past and hopes for the future. Upon writing this letter, I felt as if I was renewing my life as well. I was full of confidence back then writing the letter, I never knew that would change. For the whole summer, you never even bothered talking to me, or even sending me a simple instant message. You never asked me how I am doing. That's when I knew that there was no sense of care in you afterall. We haven't talked for the longest time now that it doesen't even matter if you go far away from here because it will all feel the same. But how do I really know that? We have not exchanged words in a long time. Now that confidence had turned into bitterness, maybe even hate. At first I could not accept the fact that you were leaving. Now, sadly, I think that it's better that you are gone. So I can move on, maybe? Time will most definitely change things for both of us. But for now, things are at it's worst.

The letter was finished; but I never gave it to you. You're leaving. I don't think I will ever send it. At least, that's what I think for now.

As much as it sounds like I hate you right now; don't you worry. I haven't lost my mind yet. I haven't banished you out of my thoughts. I'm a nice person. This is what's in for you and I can't stop you from leaving. I cannot control your decisions. I understand. Aside from all this I still wish you good luck and may you have a good life. You have my greatest regards. Remember, WE ARE STILL FAMILY.

So here I am. Again, I must say. I have created a Xanga long before but I felt like I needed to make a new one as a symbol of this new chapter of my life. I have left highschool behind and now I have to face the so called "real world." How real could it be? I don't know what to expect. All I know is that I have learned from the past and I shall embrace these lessons and apply them to what's ahead of me. Highschool, no doubt, was a blast. I found real freindships and created everlasting memories. I have learned different skills needed for the future. I learned how to obey and more importantly, to lead. I have experienced love and hate; and I have been hated and loved. My faith have gotten stronger. I now have a reason to love life and what it has to offer. To be frank with you, I'd rather be young and not face the real world. But I'm not in Neverland, I can't stay young forever.  Despite of all the immaturities and drama of youthhood, there's something precious about them. I grew and became more aware of what life is all about. This chapter of my life has come to an end. Now is the time to start a new page. Come what may, I am ready to face it. I've got my faith, family, and friends standing by me.